Hi,
Today I find myself missing a life I haven't been privilege to live yet. Sound weird? To me it doesn't, I look at photos posted by my friends who are married and who get to travel with their spouses and I feel so left out. I go to family parties and my married siblings and cousins talk about their kids and life. I feel left out because I want a family of my own. I want a house with a husband who I love to pieces and who can drive me nuts. I want the screaming kids who yell at the top of their lungs and that I can be loud with. I just want something that I can not seem to find.
I can not seem to find a guy that wants me for me and that isn't scared of being with me. I have plenty of guys in my life that will promise me stuff and then they never do follow through.
I know I am finicky and that I don't make my mind up very fast, but I know that I need a guy that is understanding.
Why is it so hard to find the one guy? I have friends who are my age and they have been married and divorced and remarried again. It just doesn't seem fair at all. I am tired of being single, I hate that fact.
I hate being envious of my friends that are married, I know the grass doesn't always look greener on the other side of the street but I do know that I want to find someone that I can share my pain with. I have been told that I hold my emotions like a boy, that I only will let you in on them if I trust you and that can take a while. I can promise you though once you get to know me you can read me like a book.
I am tired of looking for the one and only in my life. I have decided to dedicate this blog to my dating experiences. I will be leaving out the guys name or changing it completely also I will change his work and everything about him. (I will make them all sound like Armie Hammer)
I promise to start posting them. I might even adventure back in time and pull out a few of my favorite ones.
As Always Thanks for Reading.
