Where did February go?

Hi all
I know there is one more day in shortest month of the year and I find myself asking where did February go? What happened to it? I know I lived through it and most of my month was spent healing a hurting heart, but I cannot believe February it is almost over. I am excited for Leap day! I am excited there is one more day to February.  Leap day it is one of my favorite days!
Yesterday, I was surfing the web and i found a few thoughts that made me stop and think and I would like to share them with you.

 This thought I love because it made think about how many times in life am I scared to voice my own opinions in fear that I will look stupid or loose a friend. I am learning the hard way that I need to be up front right from the start. I love the last line,  "Listen to others around you but not to loose your own voice." You were given a voice and ideas of your own to express to others and sometimes the ideas are good and sometimes the ideas need to be critiqued, but one must not be afraid to express it for in expressing it allows the real you to come out.
The next thought is about being yourself and I love how the thought says it:

We must always be true to yourself, no matter what. We are all given different talents and abilities and the world needs more good people who are not afraid to show who they truly are in this world. So be you and live life.
I love both of the quotes, as I read them, I started to reflect on my life in its current state and I realized that I need to be better at being me. I know that it doesn't take a lot to get me to panic and I get excited over the smallest things. I love to be out going, yet sitting and people watching is something I love to do. I love to watch the interactions between a group of people and listening to peoples conversations is a good way to learn different way of thinking about people or things in this world. I take comfort in the fact God who created every soul on this earth, knows us all and loves us all the way we are. He loves us regardless of our imperfections and our quirky ways of doing things. I find strength through the Love of God. In focusing on his Love for me, I find that I want to show the world who I truly am. Even, when I get scared and I shutter in fear I tell myself, God Loves me.
I need to get back to studying and life.
As always Thanks for reading!

Break-up songs

Hi,
I don't know if you have any break-up songs that after you break up with someone you find yourself listening to the songs or maybe song over and over and over non-stop. This last break-up, I was sure I didn't have any. Till my roommates and a few friends of mine, started to point them out to me. In fact even my iTunes would beg to differ with me saying I don't have any break-up songs.
I thought I would dedicate a full post to the songs of my healing heart and to say thank-you to all the song writers and musicians out there that composed and sang these wonderful songs. I would like to share them with you. (I hope the links to them work.)
The first one I love so very much is from the 1960's era of music and its, Downtown by Petula Clark. When I listen to Downtown, it makes me happy and I want to hear birds chirping and I want to ride the Trax to Downtown Salt Lake City and explore to find fun restaurants to eat at!
The next artist if you haven't heard of her you should check her music out I really love her voice. The artists name is: Rachel Platten, There is actually two of her songs I have listened to non-stop the first is called Nothing ever happens, and the other is overwhelmed. I love both of these. I listen to Nothing Ever Happens, when I am about to leave my apt, to go hang out with friends, I guess you could say it is the song that pumps me up to go out and have fun. The other one Overwhelmed is how I feel a lot and I love how she describes the feeling as it is something everyone in this world can relate to.
There are two more, which I have listened too just as much. One is by Kimbra Gotye and the song is called, Somebody that I use to know. I love this one because it describes my break-up, and I love how it explains all the emotions which I have felt over the last few weeks. In fact anyone who has been through a break-up could relate to it.
The last and not least there is one by Drake and Rihanna called Take Care. Take care is one that I listened to, while I was deciding to break-up or stay together with my ex, even now though, I still listen to it.  I know every single soul who has loved someone, has been hurt by someone in the past. I guess in away this songs gives me hope for the future, where I will be in a relationship and I will be able to take care of my man and he will be able to take care of me.
You might have guessed, as I have written this post I have listened to these songs over and over. I really love them, each song has it special place in the break-up, and healing of my heart.
I know my posts lately have been on me trying to heal my heart. The other night I was hanging out with a few friends and the thought came to me, "I am single and I can date whoever I want to" the thought of it made me shutter at first, then it started to sink in and it is true I am single, and I can go on dates with whoever I want to. I don't have a boyfriend anymore he dumped me. I am free to flirt and go out on dates with other guys in this world. As hard as the first few are going to be, I might be ready to try it out, again. Then, maybe my posts will go from my hurting heart to how beautiful the world is. There is one thing I do know that I don't need to settle, and I should enjoy my single hood as long as I am in it. I need to get out so I can be writing about my adventures that are out there in this world for me to find. Maybe I will travel the world and blog about it and all the amazing people out there who I could discover.
It is getting late and I am tired and am so ready for bed! Yay!
As always, Thanks to all of you out there that have been reading my posts. You are all awesome!

What a day

Hi all,
I am still boycotting Thursdays, I just don't know why I do not get along with the day at all. I feel like the day needs a lot of help, well at least in my world it does. Maybe next months Thursdays will be a better day in the week.
Maybe you are wondering how I boycott Thursdays, I should tell you. No I am not one of those crazy people who stand on a corner holding a sign which would say things like, "Say no to Thursdays" or "Thursdays Suck" even better yet, "Thursdays should all go to Hell". No I am not that crazy instead I decided to do a semi-unformal boycott in which I stay at my house all day long and try to do things that will not cause much mess at all. I try to avoid as many people as possible and try to focus on the good things in life. So I guess in away I boycott in a semi-quite fashion, but I guess I do tell blog about it.
So while boycotting today I came across two really cool quotes and the first one made me smile and I find it kind of appropriate for my life.

I love this thought because it is true and though I am still healing my heart and when I read this quote it made me smile and so I thought I would share it, as it is a good reminder for me.
One of my friends and I were talking about my/her crazy life the other day and we realized that life hasn't been the funnest thing to live, we both have grown a lot and have learned from our mistakes. My friend and I concluded that life is a challenge for every single person who has ever lived, thing is most people are better at hiding it.
I have a secret about myself that I feel I should let you all in on, I know once I admit this and my friends read it I will never live it down. But before I tell you my secret I do have to say at least I have the guts to admit it and I am not as perfect as everyone may think I am. So my secret is I hate being wrong. I know right? Shocker? Who doesn't love being in the wrong? I know everyone hates it, but I go extremely hard on myself and it seems lately that I have been in the wrong. But at least I am learning to admit when I am wrong and the words are not a fun one to say or type, "I am wrong" I cringed writing the phrase. I hate saying it, but see I found enough strength in me to blog it and admit it to the world. You may wonder why I have decided to admit this to the world and now have a very public record of it. Well, I will tell you it because it is Thursday and I am focusing on all the good in this world and learning to admit the truth is a wonderful thing. Okay so that is part of the truth and you may still be wondering what it is I did,  to have to admit this, My dating life, has not been the best and in analyzing (maybe a little over analyzing) I can see where I may have been in the wrong and didn't ever admit it and it could have been what lead up to the latest break-up in my life. So there you have it. I am still stuck on my X. I thought I was over him, until the other day when a tall, dark hair, handsome man, asked me out on a date and I told him no. Today I am regretting telling the handsome man no. See I was wrong I should have told him yes. Who knows if he will ever ask me out again, after all I am single now and there are tons of amazing guys out there and going on a few dates might just help this heart of mine to heal. I know right I get an amazingly handsome guy to ask me out and I turn him down, next time I see him I am going to have to tell him I was wrong and I would love for him to take me out on a date.
I should apologize and say that I am sorry that my posts lately might seem a little random and mumbo jumbo, but that is the real me a little random and always thinking randomly. I love being me. Which leads to the other quote that I would like to share with you.

This one makes me happy because, I always say you need to be true to yourself and live what you believe. Express your inner person, and be happy with who you are.
I need to get back to my studies.
As always thanks for Reading!

~Happy~

Hi all,
So I have been really busy this week, and I have had a few more set backs in life than I would like to admit. It seems I have been taking a few steps forward than I get a few steps back, and so I feel I am going no where. In feeling this way for the last few weeks, especially in healing my heart, from the pain in which I am feeling. In feeling this way I found this really cool thought from free your mind and think. I love the quote.

I love how simply Buddha explained it, If you want happiness focus on it, and so that is what I am going to be doing is focusing on being happy and that is what I am trying to do. I also have a song which I have listened to none stop and I would like to share that with you. It is somebody that I used to know by Kimbra Gotye. I have listened to it non stop.
I know this post was way random, kind of random like I am but I hope you enjoyed.
I need to get back to my studies.
As always thanks for reading!

Surviving With A Smile... Well, Sort Of...

Hi All,
So it has been two weekends from the big break up of the year for me at least. I find weekends are still the time that I miss my X-boyfriend the most, cause it would be the time when I would see him.  In those sad moments of missing him, I have found out who my friends have been, as I have gotten phone calls and text messages from people who have an activity for me to do. Which helps take away the lonely feeling which find myself consumed in. I know as hard as it was saying good bye to someone I loved very much, it was the right thing. I find myself repeating that, sometimes the hardest thing to do in life is the right thing.
In one of myself pity parties, which I threw for myself, I got on my computer and I found this thought. It really doesn't have to much to do about the loneliness in my life but I like the thought of it. It made think about how true it is:

I love this thought, because sometimes our worst enemy isn't an ugly monster but a nice looking guy who you thought you could trust but turns out you couldn't at all.
I know it will still take sometime for me to heal completely from this but I feel I have come a long way, in two weeks but still have a ways to go. I don't want to jump back into the dating game and still be holding feelings from the last relationship, I want to be able to give the next guy my full heart and not hold anything over him, or against him. I know this will take some time and I am willing to give it the time it will take, to heal properly.
I need to be off and running to a dinner with a few friends.
As, always thanks for reading!

Perspective

Hi all,
I hope everyone had a fun Valentine's Day.... And for all of us singles and ones who are going through a brake-up that you found like I did a few reasons to smile today.
Today I have been thinking about life and all the many perspectives there are out there to have. Every person in this world can look at something and everyone is going to see it very differently, and that is what makes this world so very interesting. I know when I have a problem I love getting as much advice from many different people. I have a very good example of this.
Here is one of the cutest pictures I have found with two very different interpretations of the picture and here it is:

See what I mean one picture and two ways to view it.
As always thanks for reading.

Boycott Thursdays..

Hi all,
Is anyone else in on the idea of Boycotting Thursdays? I want to boycott them, reason is I feel that Thursdays bring nothing but bad news and heart ache and pain of the entire week.
Thursdays for me have never been the best days, I have learned that on Thursdays I cannot eat messy food like spaghetti or anything with mustard  or that can stain clothes I have to avoid eating because I am bound to spill on myself. Lately, it seems not only do I spill on myself but it is the day that I get bad news.  Today while talking to my Nan, she was telling me how she liked my idea of boycotting Thursdays. She even said that she might know of a few people that would also boycott it as well.
I have a cool quote that doesn't fit this post of boycotting a crappy day. The quote is more about how we all hurt, and how there are a few out there that are worth standing by.

I need to get back to my homework and figuring out how one boycotts Thursdays officially.
As always thanks for reading.

Welcome to the Single life

Hi,
So for those of you that have been following my blog might recall a few weeks back I was excited and giddy that I had a boyfriend. I am sad to say I am back in the single life. I hold no hard feelings towards my X-boyfriend. This break-up is all new to me, I am still in the grieving stages. We broke up officially on Sunday Feb. 5, 2012. I was so excited for Valentine's day and now I find that holiday once again is lame and pointless.
I have decided that people who can make long distance relationships work are awesome, and I have a new appreciation for those lucky few that make it work.
I keep being told time will heal my broken heart, but I have decided that time sucks! I try not to cry but there are those moments where I just break down and cry. I find when I am in my car driving home or anytime I would either text him or he would text me I cry and I feel stupid.You know I thought he really was the one for me. But I guess not. I do have to say whoever ends up with my X-boyfriend will be one lucky girl. 
I am the type that doesn't try to show my emotions. I have learned lately how to show my emotions so it is healthier for me in the long run of things. I am still learning to show them and when, I tell you one thing I am water works, I apparently am a crier. I use to believe crying makes you weak, but I have learned crying is good to get out. I am also trying to let people in my life, and not to be so introverted, but it is tough for me as a child I was shy. I know we all go through heartache and pain.. Why does it seem loosing someone is the hardest, I hate goodbyes, especially when a part of you knows it will be forever.

I have a few quotes I have found that might be kind of fitting for this post.


“God can heal a broken heart, but He has to have all the pieces.”
- Author Unknown


“Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go.”
- Author Unknown


I will try to make the next post a little bit more happier. 
As always thanks for reading.