So it has been two weekends from the big break up of the year for me at least. I find weekends are still the time that I miss my X-boyfriend the most, cause it would be the time when I would see him. In those sad moments of missing him, I have found out who my friends have been, as I have gotten phone calls and text messages from people who have an activity for me to do. Which helps take away the lonely feeling which find myself consumed in. I know as hard as it was saying good bye to someone I loved very much, it was the right thing. I find myself repeating that, sometimes the hardest thing to do in life is the right thing.
In one of myself pity parties, which I threw for myself, I got on my computer and I found this thought. It really doesn't have to much to do about the loneliness in my life but I like the thought of it. It made think about how true it is:
I love this thought, because sometimes our worst enemy isn't an ugly monster but a nice looking guy who you thought you could trust but turns out you couldn't at all.
I know it will still take sometime for me to heal completely from this but I feel I have come a long way, in two weeks but still have a ways to go. I don't want to jump back into the dating game and still be holding feelings from the last relationship, I want to be able to give the next guy my full heart and not hold anything over him, or against him. I know this will take some time and I am willing to give it the time it will take, to heal properly.
I need to be off and running to a dinner with a few friends.
As, always thanks for reading!
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