Hi all,
I have to confess that I really don't like the time between new years and Valentine's Day. I find myself on New Year's Day starting the count down to Valentine's Day. I have done this for as long as I can remember. I guess the reason, is January is cold and there isn't any holidays and it still gets dark really early and I feel so miserable during the month. I always feel that a part of me is dying in the cold darkeness of the month. I am all about the warm sunshine and staying light for until 10 or so. Walking outside without long sleeves and sweating in the heat, Suntanning and sitting by a pool. Why oh why do I still live in Utah, where the winters are so cold and so miserable at times.
Last month, was the coldest January we have had since 1945. Wow I am talking about the weather must not be anything for me to talk about. J/K
I guess what I am trying to say is that I am so excited that Spring is on its way and I get to enjoy the warm weather and start exercising once again. I am also excited cause so far this year my spleen is normal so I can start making my stomach muscles nice and tight once again.
I know this post has to be my most random of them all, I guess it goes to show how random of a person I am.
I need to be off and running.
As always thanks for reading.
Saturday, February 16, 2013
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Blinded at First
Hi all,
So I am not dating anyone right at the moment. I found this journal entry I wrote a while back and I just wanted to share it with you. Everyone out there that is single and knows the pain and lonely times of being single.
Have you ever dated someone and you are totally and completely in love. You are in love to the point where you put the guy on a petal-stool and you only see what you want to see. You might see things that when you were dating someone else, should have been a deal breaker but you want to be in a relationship so bad that you are willing to over look them? Even when your friends and family are pointing them out and you are like I love this person and it really isn't a big deal that my opinions and desires don't matter and there is like a thousand red flags, I am in love!
Then one day you wake up and you find that your brain has returned. (Hopefully you aren't to far into the relationship) And you finally see what your friends and family have been trying to tell you, about the person. Then you realize how selfish you had been and how rude you where to the ones who truly love you.
Then comes the moment you are dreading breaking up with the person, and being single. To hear the words: Me, a party of one.
Going to family parties alone, and finding that you get along better with the kids then with the adults. For some reason the kids get you and don't care that you are single, yet the adults will whisper and wonder why and even might ask you why are you single? See and that is what you are dreading, cause when you are with someone they don't ask you those questions.
So you break up with him and you are left to face the world and you find yes alone you may be a party of one, but with the Lord you are a party of two. Then with the people he places in your life to help you through the trials.
I know there are many singles in this world that know exactly how this feels and I glad to share it with you.
As Always thanks for reading.
So I am not dating anyone right at the moment. I found this journal entry I wrote a while back and I just wanted to share it with you. Everyone out there that is single and knows the pain and lonely times of being single.
Have you ever dated someone and you are totally and completely in love. You are in love to the point where you put the guy on a petal-stool and you only see what you want to see. You might see things that when you were dating someone else, should have been a deal breaker but you want to be in a relationship so bad that you are willing to over look them? Even when your friends and family are pointing them out and you are like I love this person and it really isn't a big deal that my opinions and desires don't matter and there is like a thousand red flags, I am in love!
Then one day you wake up and you find that your brain has returned. (Hopefully you aren't to far into the relationship) And you finally see what your friends and family have been trying to tell you, about the person. Then you realize how selfish you had been and how rude you where to the ones who truly love you.
Then comes the moment you are dreading breaking up with the person, and being single. To hear the words: Me, a party of one.
Going to family parties alone, and finding that you get along better with the kids then with the adults. For some reason the kids get you and don't care that you are single, yet the adults will whisper and wonder why and even might ask you why are you single? See and that is what you are dreading, cause when you are with someone they don't ask you those questions.
So you break up with him and you are left to face the world and you find yes alone you may be a party of one, but with the Lord you are a party of two. Then with the people he places in your life to help you through the trials.
I know there are many singles in this world that know exactly how this feels and I glad to share it with you.
As Always thanks for reading.
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Learning to Play More Dating Games...
Hi,
I am sorry I haven't written in some time, I have been way busy with life, dating and school. You know I have been out on several dates and let the dating blues continue. I know, I know I need to keep my head up, but it is hard to do at times cause I feel that the problem when it comes to dating, is me.
As I was feeling that way today, I received an email from a guy that will remain nameless and this is what the lovely e-mail said,
"I am looking for a girl that will put me first no matter what, as I am what matters most to me, is me, you are so pretty from your profile pics. I think you would be a perfect fit for me."
I read that, and my feeling disappeared and I was like no wonder I am still single, guys just want to see girls like objects to do with what they would please. I know that was a way general statement but that is the type of guy that keeps asking me out, I at times wonder what signal am I putting out that I seem to only get those type of guys to ask me out.
Dating I find, is rough and tough. Guys don't want to get married, they just want to live the bachelor life.
Then again, I was at a party the other night with a few friends and I met some really cool guys. One of them made a really good point, he said, "The reason guys stay single is they don't want to have to clean up after themselves, they would like to live in a mess their whole lives." He then went on to say how he had a little OCD in him and he was tired of living with sloppy guys and was ready to either live on his own or get married. I had to agree, I am wanting to get married or live out on my own. I love having roommates don't get me wrong there is just times where I wished I had a place of my own, one that I could decorate with my style and personality, that when I cleaned something it would stay clean for more than an hour.
I was looking at some of my family history and I found out that I have 2 Great-grandmothers who got married in their 30's. Back in the 1930's where they would have been considered spinsters, there are no journals, from either of them that I know about. At times I wish there was, just to know how they coped with the lonely feelings, and the dark moments of uncertainty. I do however, find myself taking a lot of courage from both of them. One of them was on my dad's side and the other is on my mom's side. I actually had the thought, must run in the family and then a smile comes to my face and I had to look into the sky and smile. I know one day I will find my better half until then the single adventures continue on and on.
I have to get going, I will not promise but will say that I am going to try to do better with the whole updating the blog with whatever adventures lay ahead of me and that will included dating as well.
As always thanks for reading!
I am sorry I haven't written in some time, I have been way busy with life, dating and school. You know I have been out on several dates and let the dating blues continue. I know, I know I need to keep my head up, but it is hard to do at times cause I feel that the problem when it comes to dating, is me.
As I was feeling that way today, I received an email from a guy that will remain nameless and this is what the lovely e-mail said,
"I am looking for a girl that will put me first no matter what, as I am what matters most to me, is me, you are so pretty from your profile pics. I think you would be a perfect fit for me."
I read that, and my feeling disappeared and I was like no wonder I am still single, guys just want to see girls like objects to do with what they would please. I know that was a way general statement but that is the type of guy that keeps asking me out, I at times wonder what signal am I putting out that I seem to only get those type of guys to ask me out.
Dating I find, is rough and tough. Guys don't want to get married, they just want to live the bachelor life.
Then again, I was at a party the other night with a few friends and I met some really cool guys. One of them made a really good point, he said, "The reason guys stay single is they don't want to have to clean up after themselves, they would like to live in a mess their whole lives." He then went on to say how he had a little OCD in him and he was tired of living with sloppy guys and was ready to either live on his own or get married. I had to agree, I am wanting to get married or live out on my own. I love having roommates don't get me wrong there is just times where I wished I had a place of my own, one that I could decorate with my style and personality, that when I cleaned something it would stay clean for more than an hour.
I was looking at some of my family history and I found out that I have 2 Great-grandmothers who got married in their 30's. Back in the 1930's where they would have been considered spinsters, there are no journals, from either of them that I know about. At times I wish there was, just to know how they coped with the lonely feelings, and the dark moments of uncertainty. I do however, find myself taking a lot of courage from both of them. One of them was on my dad's side and the other is on my mom's side. I actually had the thought, must run in the family and then a smile comes to my face and I had to look into the sky and smile. I know one day I will find my better half until then the single adventures continue on and on.
I have to get going, I will not promise but will say that I am going to try to do better with the whole updating the blog with whatever adventures lay ahead of me and that will included dating as well.
As always thanks for reading!
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