Hi all,
I feel bad, I have neglected this blog. I have been buried underneath homework, I really don't have a social life anymore. Which is a good thing, actually no it's not:) I miss hanging out with my friends, I have a few friends I haven't seen in over a month and they only live three doors down from me. I love school though, it does give me a good excuse out of doing things, I don't want to do, cause I have the excuse of my never ever ending homework. I always have something to do, something to read, something that needs my attention. It never ever ends.
I also have neglected this blog due to health problems. The doctors aren't quite sure what I have, I know it isn't contagious. I have been suffering for the last 4 months, I have fatigue and aches and pains, followed by weakness, and dizziness. Yes, I do eat, and I crave salt!
The past two weeks have been scary for me in one of my check-ups they discovered some lumps and the doctors thought I had cancer. Thank heavens and praises and prayers, the test came back that, I just have a few cysts, that were benign.
Nothing scarier than facing reality you may have cancer. This is the third time this year doctors have thought I have had cancer, and each time the scare has come out that I don't. It amazes me, how a scare like cancer can make you rethink your life. Rethink your priorities, each time, I find myself rethinking my choices I have made. I find myself thinking about my relationships, especially with my father in heaven. Each time the fear has consumed me, and this last time, I was prepared with what I would do, where I would live, where I would get treatments from. It was too close for my comfort. I find that life is truly an adventure and we never know when it is our time to go. I am thankful for knowing that I have a loving Father in Heaven who knows my name and loves me. He has been my strength and my shelter for my heart. Though I have suffered a lot, he has lessened the blow of the pain. He has loved me through the pain. He has made some really bright sunny moments. My Father in Heaven has put people in my life that I needed and still need. I know if you are going through a tuff time in your life the Lord will help you through it if you allow him too!
I just realized the time and I need to be off and running. Before, I do, I just want to say that I am going to try to get better at blogging. I am going to try to be better at posting. I know my grammar may not be the best, for which I am sorry, but I know as I continue to write it will get better.
Thanks for reading!
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