Life lines and jackets!

Hi all,
Life is all about learning to wait for the perfect timing of things! I have a life long dream that sometimes I feel has been over looked and forgotten about, by almost every single person in this world but ME! I at times feel left out when this subject comes up, of my life long dream! As I watch as my friends and family will be blessed with it!
I sometimes will wonder when will it be my turn? The other night one of my sweet friends reminded me of a really good analogy that I would like to share with you it is by Kathy Grant and it is this:

"Imagine that your favorite hobby is stargazing and you’ve just joined a stargazing club. You come to your first club activity eager to participate. It’s a cold night, but you’re not concerned: most of the club members are wearing club jackets, and you’ve been told you should be able to get one as well. But there is no jacket for you. You ask about it, and you are told to keep looking and that if you do your best, you will find a jacket when the time is right.
Meanwhile, you are getting pretty cold and a little worried. And you notice that most of the other club members are talking about how nice and warm their jackets are. In fact, throughout the evening the topic surfaces continually in various forms: how to wash and dry your jacket, how to add extra pockets, how to mend it, and so forth. Some of the club members notice you don’t have a jacket. “You really need a jacket for these activities,” they tell you. “Why don’t you have one yet?”

At times, I feel with my wishes and wants of life, is just like me searching for my star gazing jacket! I know it is out there for me to find! I know it is. I just don't know where to find it, or where to look for it anymore!  
I just don't like the growing pains of learning, especially when the sometimes unhealthy boundaries I have put up need to be changed and the walls I have put up need to come down and I need my foundation to be worked on and I need a strong platform to stand on, cause apparently I didn't build the last one strong enough! I guess what I am trying to say is, finding my jacket has been a rough journey and I don't know when it will be found and realized. Until then I need to keep moving and progressing in life. I am thankful for the moments in my life where I am grateful to the Big Guy in the Sky for being there for me! For his loving guidance and power to lead me from harms way! To put me where it is I need to be, learning and growing where it is I need to learn and grow! 
Life at times for me has not been easy but then when I look around I start to see that life for every single soul is not an easy one! I need to maybe put less emphasis on finding my jacket and a little more on helping those around me. 
A few weeks back, as I was sitting struggling with an issue in my life. I was taken back to an experience I had when I was about 12 or 13. My family was living in Blanding, Utah. (For those of you that don't know where that is, it is in the middle of nowhere USA.) I had gone to girls camp for a week with a bunch of girls from my town. As we were, up in the mountains having a fun time, the leaders thought it would be fun to do a blind-folded life line. Now a life line is an activity where you have a string that starts at one point and it winds around many obstacles and your goal as the participant is to never let go of the life line!

This picture isn't of me it is just a picture
found to help explain what a life-line is. 

As the leaders gathered us up and put all of us girls in the same room and then blindfolded. They had us sit on the floor and they promised us that they would pick us at random and put us on the life line. I sat patiently and I could hear the other girls being picked and I could hear the leaders walking by me and I continued to sit there and then I began to wonder if maybe they had forgotten about me as the noise in the room got quieter and quieter and I could still hear the leaders picking girls and then they would walk past me. I remember how lonely I felt and how I felt like I was forgotten about and just when I couldn't take it anymore, and I was just about to take the blindfold off and say I was done! A leader came and touched my shoulder and I was finally picked! I still remember how relieved I was that I was finally picked and my dreads and fears went away! 
All these years later I am finding strength from that experience. In that moment and since then, when I am feeling weak and like no one in this world even cares about me! I have recalled that experience and it has brought me peace and comfort to know that I wasn't forgotten then and I am still not forgotten now! I am just waiting patiently for when it is my turn for my dreams to be realized and fulfilled.
I do have to say though, I do love my roommates, friends and family. As they have been there to help and support me! 
I need to get back to studying! 
As always thanks for reading!