I know I am the worst blogger, at writing posts lately. Today, I find I am missing yet another man from my past. I have a cousin who is married to a guy that looks like a guy I use to date.
Yet my cousin's husband, I will call him Steve, is so different. My ex-boy was kind and caring. Took time for me. Yet Steve is all that and more. As I sat there watching Steve, my mind wonder back to the days I dated my ex-boy and memories full of the laughter and tears came flooding back.
Where Steve would listen to my cousin, my ex-boy would ignore me. Where Steve helped and laughed and teased. My ex-boy would of but his teasing would be belittling to me. Where Steve calls my cousin beautiful, my ex-boy would tell me how I would need to improve. Where my cousin will call her Steve pet names. My ex-boy would tell me to stop, that he was never good enough for me.
My ex-boy was way into the outdoors and loved the mountains and Rivers and all things nature. I liked that about him.
Once all those thoughts ran through my head, and all comparisons made, I had to stop and reflect on my life and I am glad it didn't work out with ex-boy.
I am happy with who I am now and with who I am dating.
The more I find things that remind me of the guys I have dated the more and more I come to realize I am right where I need to be. Almost 30, still going to school, having a part time job. Might not sound to glamorous to you, but to me it is just where I need to be.
I need to be running along the computer I wrote this on, battery is dying.
Thanks for reading my posts.
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